Yesterday God talked to be about bitterness.
I know there are many carrying bitterness as a result of past pains and blows. You've lost things or people and now living in you is this heavy, grief, anger, pain that has transformed over time into an acute bitterness.
Maybe you don't even realize the bitterness is there because you've been carrying it so long. Perhaps you believe no one notices, or it's not affecting you, or that you carry it well. If only those were true.
I'm here to tell you that you don't have to carry that bitterness anymore. It's not for you. It's toxic to your spirit and soul. Not only is it hurting you and those around you in ways you don't realize, it's a barrier between you and intimacy with the God who loves you so much.
God spoke to me through Numbers 21 when the Israelites were wandering through the desert. At one point they were so discouraged from losing Aaron- their friend, counselor, and high priest- and then being denied help from a nation that could have helped them that they became very discouraged and angry. Bitter.
They accused God of bringing them to the wilderness to die. They told Him their very souls loathed the "worthless bread," the sweet manna, He'd made fall from heaven.
Bitterness has a way of making deliverance look like a set-up and blessings look like curses. It's a poison. But the same cure God gave the children of Israel in the desert is the same cure readily available for anyone who wants it today.
I talked about it in a video I posted this morning.
Big hugs, friends. My prayer for you right now is for the pains of your past to be healed and washed with new joy for today.
If you're like to read: Numbers 21
I also wanted to share, I asked God why He had the snakes bite the Israelites. It seemed like a punishment when they were already having a hard time, despite their sin. He said that He had what was happening to them spiritually show up physically and then gave the cure for both and a sign for the ultimate cure which would be in Jesus.
God is never being cruel. It's not His nature. If you don't understand something He does, it's better to sit in that state of not knowing and lean on faith better than come to a wrong conclusion about His nature. It's ok to ask Him questions. It's not more holy not to. Accusations on His character aren't great, but questions...I ask them all the time. He's a Father. Thanks for watching.
"And Jesus said to them, 'I am the bread of life. He who comes to Me shall never hunger, and he who believes in Me shall never thirst.'"